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Original: 4/5/2009 10:11 PM
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Sunday, April 05, 2009

...So

 
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In Love and Death
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..So it's probably because I'm supposed to get my period in a few days, but shit has been going down, and I am unbearably angry about it.

Yesterday Ashley.. yeah, Ashley, you know which one... called me up, yes actually called me, and asked me if she could stay at my house for a few days, because her dad kicked her out.
She was like,"You are literally the last person left, and I really need your help"

Mom obviously said no, saying that Ashley was just using her and I, and would probably end up stealing shit, and at the very minimum totally fuck with me again..

*sigh*
So, because mom was all like, "you'll be mad at me if I don't help out" we offered to pick her up and drive her to a shelter.
We got her address, and drove across town, and were lost in fucking suburbia for fucking ever because SHE GAVE US A FUCKING ADDRESS TO A FUCKING HOUSE THAT DOESNT FUCKING EXIST!

I just feel so used... still, again!
Like.. WHY!? Why after two fucking years does she have to still be toying with me!?
This isn't fucking fair... I don't think I deserve this..



I mean,
I'm so ANGRY!
Angry that I let this happen.
She knows how I felt, she knows what this would do to me... And now she's "gone to BC to live with her mom." WHO FUCKING KNOWS if that's true!?

I'm angry.. yesterday I just wanted to break things, hurt things.. and earlier on in the week I was down, and I didn't want to eat... ((but my amazing friends made me, thanks Maddie <33))
Today something as small as not knowing how to make sleeves fit onto the bodice of this dress I'm making made me want to attack the concrete walls and floor with my fists and body.
I don't know how to get rid of this though... like. I want to hurt something, and then it'll go away until something else pisses me off, even a little stupid thing like sleeves and I'll just want to wreck things again!

Oh well...
I'll get over it I guess...
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whhhhat a bitch.
Posted 4/6/2009 10:00 AM by x_little_razor_blade_x - reply

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I agree with x_little_razor_blade_x, Ashley is indeed a bitch, I cant believe she would do something like that, specially since she knows how you felt about her...it IS felt right..not feel...<_<..

And no problem xP, what are friends for, you've helped me out a bunch of times when Ive been all down and not in a happy place.

And yeah, I know what you mean, gotta love that feeling...at least you dont actually hurt yourself...thats bad...learning that now v_v. And yeah, simple random things just throw you off completly and you go insane with anger you didnt even know was there in the first place. *hug* and Im sorry I didnt check this before >_<. Oh and good luck with your approaching period...sounds exciting...this is why I enjoy being a guy =P...except for that thing we talked about the other day..<_< thats the only unfortunate thing about being a male..

Posted 4/7/2009 2:08 AM by Caution_MCR_fan - reply

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okay, i officially hate you, spreading shit about me that isnt fucking true, and you dont even write MY side of the goddmamn story. im not fake, im as real as it gets and yeah i fucked up but what the fuck are you doing writing this shit about me behind my back, and then pretending to be my best friend? im not the only one considered a "lying manipulative bitch" who the fuck do you think you are? i just want you and your little girlfriend jessica to know that i dont care about either of you anymore and i hope i NEVER SEE YOU again! and by the way i NEVER knew what you felt about me, and i didnt know you were so messed up. jesus! whats wrong with you?!
Posted 5/23/2009 11:34 PM by nobody1235555 - reply

Ashley, give it up.
You can't win.

You heartless, self-serving leech.
I think it's time you called it a day,
and perhaps find a better hobby.
Posted 5/25/2009 6:01 PM by Catalyst - reply


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